I did something last week that is haunting me, and even though I haven't even completed (and have barely even started) the actions that I've laid out for myself I already feel disgusted. I mostly feel this way because about 17 years ago I had a video tape depicting the depravity soon to be defiling my television screen and it was pretty unwatchable after about 10 minutes or so. It was a video tape of one of GG Allin's shows.
What I did on Friday was order Hated the documentary about GG Allin. I've never been a fan of the man, his music, or his poop flinging and self mutilating antics but for some reason I've become increasingly curious about the why of it all. I've always been a fan of his song titles.
Along with interviews of GG, his band, and others this film includes a couple of his shows complete with an unflinching and uncensored view of the ensuing vileness. This part I really don't care to see not so much because it disturbs me to see some guy pooping on himself, ramming his fingers up his ass, and beating himself in the head with a microphone until he's bleeding, but because it's just gross and at the same time pretty uninteresting (to me, I'm sure some people find it interesting). Just finding it the slightest bit distasteful then makes me feel as if I'm being used by GG, which ultimately I think was part of what he was after. I think he enjoyed the attentions of those who really got off on his act, but what he really was after were the thrills invloved with making a complete spectacle of himself and making you despise him. He wasn't there to entertain you, you were there to entertain him.
He also seemed to have taken on the role of a sin eater of sorts, I mean, he really genuinely wanted the world to hate him, and although he lived his life as the persona of "GG Allin" it seems to me that at least some of it was well crafted showmanship if you will... He always insisted that he was the real deal, that none of what he did on stage was "fake shit like GWAR" but I can't help feeling that his urgent insistence of his "realness" isn't akin to professional wrestlers saying you can't fake getting dropped on your head from a ladder when asked if pro wrestling is real.
Anyway, I both can't wait to watch this DVD but am also not looking forward to seing GG covered in poop. After I've watched it are there any of you that would like to see this DVD? If so maybe we can mail it around.