What ever money I saved by not having a period for a year is now spent buying tampons. 3weeks of bleeding followed by 1 week of bliss before being too tired to replace my transdermal estrogen patch. I didn't wear it for about 20 hours and it has been like "The Shining" for the past 4 days. No cramping, but still....

Hormones are stupid, yo.

Yeah ....
If it's ok now ... I'd just chalk it up to that ...

It's getting there, my pinkie still feels a bit strange but no longer numb. Meanwhile the deep pain I felt when probing moved closer to the surface and for two day was very prominent, Now it's starting to abate. I suspect that it is from local nerve damage that is slowly repairing itself.

I guess the moral is don't fall asleep with your laying arm across a sharp corner.

Yeah ...
Shit, dude ...

And, Kat ...
That sucks ...
I've dated girls with issues like that ...

I miss having options in life.

Yeah ...
Shit, dude ...

And, Kat ...
That sucks ...
I've dated girls with issues like that ...

You dated girls with POF/POI?  I only one other chick. This girl I went to elementary school with who found me on facebook. She hooked me up to an online support group. Only problem is that most of the ladies there are trying like hell to concieve. I have no desire to have anymore kids and both times I "went into remission" I got preggo.

I finally stopped bleeding. Just need to remember to apply to apply my weekly patch to my ass today. The patches suck. I thought they would be like birth control or nicotine patches, but they like to slide around the second they get warm or damp. I have this routine of exfoliating my ass, then scrubbing the spot I'm to apply the patch with 91% rubbing alcohol,  then applying the patch to a piece  of Tagaderm, then applying the tagaderm/patch hybrid to my ass and hoping it stays on for 7 days.  The gyno I saw mentioned I could get with a "cervical ring" that I need to change every 3 months. That just sounds uncomfortable.

I had an MRI done on my back the other day. This is needed before my doctor can start me on  epidural injections for my fucked up vertebrae (T12 and L3 are now degraded from having no estrogen or progesterone. Physio helps with strength, but not pain. I'm trying to stay optimistic.

Wow I missed so much... While you tools were talking about your friends in prison last May, my brother was nailed during a Chris Hanson style sting in Lake County, FL. Looks like he'll be doing 4 years at least.

Also re:estim... I have a TENS unit and you can buy an electrode ring on eBay that you can put around your penis and in 30 seconds have a hands off orgasm... A gusher according to the vids I've seen.

Also, chicks with HSV like to fuck nonstop, which explains much.

I have 3 TENS units ...
I've never seen that attachment though ....

Dude, I need one... I killed it.

Google tens hands free orgasm

It works. They put electrodes on dildos and put one in a woman's rectum and the other in her vagina and she lay ther cumming over and over and over...

Hmmmm ...
I need to check this shit out ...

So Hilder lets you shove electrodes up her ass?

There are a lot of links to its usefulness:
https://www.google.com/?gws_rd=ssl#safe=off&q=tens+orgasm

Yeah I know, just doing the visuals.

Sorry Hilder if you are offended, but can't help imagine watching your squirming naked body as he attacks your intimate places with his instruments of desire.

He does that already ....

Well.

Ok for the last two months I have felt like shit, and have basically been bedridden for most of it.  I've only been able to sit up occasionally for an hour or two once in awhile before I start feeling bad again and have to go lie down, and spend most of the day in bed.  Right before all that started, I found out, like I mentioned earlier, that I'd lost 126 pounds in the year previous.  I was a little worried, but the doctor seemed ok with it so I was too.

So yesterday I go for another doctor visit, they weigh me and I've lost another 52 pounds in the last two months.

What the fuck.

I have been bedridden for the majority of that, I'm not getting any exercise at all.  So how?  I asked her and she said that she's seen the same thing happen to people confined in hospital beds, and she wasn't worried about it, but god damn, it can't be good, right?

I mean, I'm down to 395, a weight that I haven't seen since 1995 I think, but still.  What the fuck.

Also when I told her how bad I was feeling she said she was going to schedule me for an electrocardiogram to be safe and go from there, but no call from her or them yet.  I have another appointment with her in two weeks, so maybe she's waiting until then.

I got approved to start Pain Management Therapy. First appointment is on October 1st.

Physiotherapy has helped me get stronger, but it does absolutely nothing for the pain and left leg weakness/numbness. The MRI I had last week showed a bunch of degeneration in my L3 vertebrae.

I'm sick of having to lay down. Sick of having to actually take a break when I shower. Sick of not being able to play with my 6 year olds.

I'm glad to be getting into PMT, but I'm trying to not get too optimistic because I don't want to fall into a deep depression if it doesn't work.

Yeah, I got sick of feeling like I was gonna have a goddamn heart attack after a shower, too, so I bought a shower chair off amazon for 60 bucks.  Best damn investment I ever made.

I got a shower chair after I had my vertical c-section. (cuz both of them were breech when the doctors said they needed to come out)

It doesn't work for showers now because the only way to lessen the pain is to lay down on my right side.

But shower chairs are great. They make shaving in the shower much less dangerous.

I'm happy for both of you ...
I really hope there is no complication(s), Johnny ...
I made a comment that you looked pretty good in the pic that you shared in the other thread ...

Kat; let's hope it works out for you ...

Heh, thanks.

I have been having WAY too much goddamn fun with this particular meme on vine today:


https://vine.co/v/eQv321K9tmi

I need to check out Vine ...
I never have ...

You should, there's some funny stuff on there.

uh... uh... uh... yeah...

After getting the first epidural on Thursday, I'm doing pretty good.

Absolutely no numbness in my left leg when sitting. Pain was at about an 8/9 out of 10 and is now at a 4/5.

They only did the left side. On the 15th, I go back to get my right side done.

Sitting for long periods of time still hurts, but not as much as before.

I sit so much my butt gets sore.

At first I thought that said "shit".

Good for you, Kat ...
I'm happy your pain is finally being managed ...

I don't mind shitting fire; as long as the meal was a good one ...

I'm finally trying NaNoWriMo this year.  I've planned to do it every November for years now, but never made myself crunch down and do it, but this year I'm gonna kick my ass into gear and do it if it kills me.

http://nanowrimo.org/participants/somnimiles/novels/rogue-19

I'm about 3500 word in so far.  Behind by a bit, but hopefully I'll catch up.  The novel is an idea I came up with back in 2008 that I've always wanted to do something with.

At first I thought that said "shit".

Yeah I should've said my butt gets sore from sitting.  But also occasionally from ghost peppers.
Love that hot shit.

Fuck Ima go eat some now.  You made me think of it and I will be sorry, but the rush ...