I hate all of this, because I understand NONE of it. "This" being emotions and relationships. That is why I like being alone frequently, and often find myself daydreaming about being alone on the moon. Sometimes I miss being a virgin, because things were so simple then.
I guess I wanted to back away for a few days, for myself. I need distance after getting my thoughts out there. Is that so wrong? But it didn't happen anyway. She texted me all day, more than she has ever before. It's cool she wants to talk, but this is what I was afraid of. I don't want her to be overbearingly attached now that I gave the "green light". I would like us to stay similar to what we were before, but now we know we are exclusive. She does her own things, I do mine, and we do things together but not every day. I need to learn more about this concept of give-and-take.
Anyway, she's really sick - 101.8 fever, and sore throat. Which doesn't bode well for me. I woke up with a slightly sore throat.
Either Sasha gave me swine flu when I finished the bit of whiskey up in the bottle she'd been drinking, or Ian brought some incurable Ozzy flu with him down here.