I've been aware I'm dreaming lots of times, pretty often in fact. The worst is being in a nightmare, being aware of being in a nightmare, and not being able to will yourself out of it. Part of Coraline (which I watched last night) reminded me of that.
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I had a dream a few nights ago that some guys carjacked me. I handed over my keys and phone and wallet like a sensible person, and told them that was all I had. The lead guy got all in my face and told me he wanted the two ounces of weed, too. I told him that I didn't have those anymore, that I'd had them several days earlier and had dropped them off.
The guy grabbed at me and told me to take him to where I'd dropped them off, which was my house (all this is pretty factual, by the way, apart from the actual carjacking). I was fucked if I was gonna let these fucks know where I lived, or take them back to where Amy was and let them steal even more shit, so I grabbed the dude by the throat with both hands and strangled the fuck out of him against my jeep. Crushed his windpipe (it went "pop" which may or may not happen in real life, I have no idea) and killed him on the spot.
He slumped down on the ground and his boys ran away, and I was left wondering what the fuck to do. I figured there was nothing wrong with me taking back my stuff, since the police would probably just steal all the money in my wallet and I'd likely never get the phone back either, so I went through the guy's pockets and got the stuff. Then I called the cops, and started worrying about how they were gonna react to a foreign white boy having just strangled a local to death. Then I started really freaking out, wondering if I'd gone too far and hadn't really needed to actually kill the guy, despite the fact that he had a gun and probably would've killed me if I hadn't finished him. Then I started worrying if I could prove that I'd been in mortal danger, etc.
Then I woke up all freaked out. Worrying like that sucks in a dream.