I like it how you push people away who want to get to know you better. That attitude will take you places
Dr. Drew says things are always based in childhood. I had no dad from my young formative years (2 - 7), then my mom married my step-dad who I disliked for years, but actually am very close to now, and my mom is now on her third marriage. My step-dad on his second marriage, and I haven't talked to my real-dad in 5 years.
So yeah, I have a lot of trouble with closeness and bringing people into my life. It makes me feel uneasy.
I actually kind of had this conversation with suicidal girl, and told her I have never been in a relationship and that "I don't like people". It's really not that I don't like people, it's just that I am more comfortable by myself.