I want to create a thread, but haven't been motivated to.

You keep saying that. How do you even get out of bed in the morning? Dude, get some help.

In all seriousness I am getting all wacky, and feel numb to the world for the most part. It's called depression, I know. It runs in my family (on both sides) and even if it's not genetic, I must have behaviourly picked it up from my mother.

Sigh. Nothing seems to interest me, except having sex. That is ALL I care about right now. Sleep, eat, shit, piss, shower, work, think about sex. Post about thinking about sex.

Actually, you know what the fuck it is? I was eating so well and healthy in Tokyo, and excercising WAY more than I ever do here (walking miles), and then I get back here and start eating fast food and trash again and now have no energy, no desire, no willpower, and no feelings inside. I mean sometimes I wish the Golden Gate bridge were in town. The great plunge.

America is shite.

Sigh. Nothing seems to interest me, except doing drugs. That is ALL I care about right now. Sleep, eat, shit, piss, shower, work, think about drugs. Post about thinking about drugs.

I think about moon pies all day.  Shit, piss, sex, moon pies, and rollie pollies.

I think about cream pies all day.  Shit, piss, sex, cream pies, and rollie pollies.

Hawt.

I want my damn car.

I mean sometimes I wish the Golden Gate bridge were in town. The great plunge.

From what I've been reading; In Texas, suicide is considered " Death by natural causes " .

specially suicide by cop

You can exercise in the US, it's called eating sandwiches and cycling into work. Would probably save you about $300 per month in food, gas and parking bills

It's unconstitutional !!

Current thought: Why do some guys say the are SO straight and then you see their profile on a bi or gay site??

Because they're fags.

Yeah, that was my first thought... but then why do they try to hide it by hooking up with chicks and such? I mean really.. I'm as open as they get. How hard is it to tell a gal like me that you want to go out and get nailed in the ass by strange, random guys???

Random defence of strangers : Maybe they are trying to make themselves feel better: seeing if they are atractive to men. Maybe somebody stole their pic. Maybe they didn't feel comfy telling you their secret desire. Maybe Maybe Maybe.

Hmmm. Good points.

He did tell me that when he was 17 some fag on the street offered him $10k for a night with him. He said he went home and took a shower.... maybe he meant after he got the cash???

Current thought: Joygasm needs to check her PMs

Current thought: k

I can't wait to see how this plays out

*uses the mosh technique* Damn! That doesn't work on the internet.

I have technique?

Sweet.

They crotch grabbing thing, remember?

Ahh right, yeah.

I think that only works for Australians.

I'm only in Texas until I finish school and then I'm out, FOR LIFE!

Maybe I'll meet a cool guy in Japan with a dick at least 6 inches long and we will get married and have little half breed babies... ahh a girl can dream.

Those are the cutest kinds of babies! Good luck!

I saw that in L.A.! And took a picture of it. I'm such a rebel.

Yeah, it'd be cool to meet some hot Japanese guys. mmmm

Ahh right, yeah.

I think that only works for Australians.

Sometimes you just need to check.

Current thought: Today I feel much more productive, and happier. I am home for lunch. Last night I actually went grocery shopping (first time in over a year) and bought stuff to make my lunches (not yet dinners), so I am sitting here enjoying my time, eating my healthier and much less-expensive meal.

Puts a smile on my face.

Well I guess, the quick beat-off helped too. Nothing breaks up the day better.

Yeah, that was my first thought... but then why do they try to hide it by hooking up with chicks and such? I mean really.. I'm as open as they get. How hard is it to tell a gal like me that you want to go out and get nailed in the ass by strange, random guys???

Because they're not comfortable with their sexuality..?

My current thought is my eyes hurt. Today was really exhausting actually, I ate a little bit of breakfast and then had to work, with miniscule break, till 6. Then I came home and pigged out. I'm not used to work, I'm a slacker by nature; it's how I got into this mess. But tomorrow should be okay.

Step is going around work. Firs felt it about 10 am yesterday. Staff nurse got me the anti-biotics but I've been feeling like pure shit since. Sadly I've got to go out in the rain in a few and get to class.

LAST FUCKING ONE (if i ever finish that other paper I owe from last year)

emo katie says: sorry mello, strep sucks. p.s. i found a pic from my philly trip that you're in. gotta scan that shit.

current thoughts: if the sox game is rained out tonight i'm going to flip my shit.

hmm 15 guests.

current thought: Fuck. I gotta go to work and it's going to storm its ass off.

And Manny just got busted for drugs. I had thought the 2004 post season was the greatest ever. Poop

current thought: Change of plans.. no work for me tonight! I'm getting drunk bitches!!! So don't mind my random, fucked up posts later...