i wake up with headaches and often have no recollection of the last events before bedtime. perhaps i am a psycho killer, blocking out my violent episodes. it could explain the missing pieces and some of the fuzziness. i am most likely the protagonist in the latest chuck palahniuk novel. i will probably die a twisted and fiery death, or end up killing my parents or boyfriend or someone else i love very much and upon whom i have no intention of inflicting violence. this will, of course, all be in a blaze of blood and anger and shit and piss and bone shattering beatings mingled with the heady aroma of semen.