My oldest son was in and out of the hospital frequently in his first year, and it was so difficult to watch all those foreign hands poking and prodding him all the time. He had asthma and chronic bronchitis. At one point, these conditions caused a severe upper respiratory infection, and the drainage caused him to cough so much that he would puke, and he wasn't able to keep his food down. The doctors wanted to give him a feeding tube with formula instead of me continuing to breastfeed and I was livid. Up until this point I had been fighting every day with his father and (father's) parents about the bottle feeding vs. breastfeeding thing. So when the doctor assured me that my son would not get the proper amount of nutrients if I continued to breastfeed, I was ready to knock his teeth down his throat. Finally the doctor seemed to understand that the formula was not going to happen. In the times when my son was asleep I would take one of his blankets with me to the next room and utilize the electric breast pump. The blanket smelled like him, and that sort of tricked my stressed-out mind into thinking he was nursing, and my milk came down easier. I had to pump because my son's nursing had slowed down so much. I froze a lot of milk, and he still nursed, just not as much, until the infection went away. Poor baby. Now he has an attitude of "I don't give a fuck" the size of Texas, is failing the subjects in school he doesn't like, has a cute little girlfriend, hates my ex, loves football, reads every book he can get his hands on, and writes his own fantasy/syfy stories.
He still has asthma, but he seems to be growing out of it slowly.
I have two other kids, but they didn't have much trouble the way my oldest did. My daughter kicks ass at basketball, and stars in all the school plays, and my youngest son, is a nervous little spazz......
I wonder why I talk and write so damn much. I even text like this, little seven page text messages...... it drives my sister nuts, and I bet it drives Zoomie nuts too, but he is just too nice to say something.
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