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I think this is probably going to be thing that ends us eventually, unless we find some understanding. We're nearly 10 years apart, and so we're at different places in our lives. Most of her friends are around her age, and thus are going to college parties, fucking dudes, living up the single life, while she, has bucked that trend and has a real boyfriend. I feel like I may be holding her back from going through experiences that everybody should go through in their early 20s. On the other hand, I know what goes on at college parties. Drinking and hooking up, that's the way it goes.
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But anyway, it's time for some serious discussions this weekend on where this relationship is going, our feelings, etc. I know that we both love each other very much, it's just the age difference that may kill this relationship.
There is a hole in my chest cavity, the size of an orange that won't go away. We have been talking about going on a "break" for a while now, and even tried to a few times, but couldn't go more than 3-4 days without seeing each other and still texted and talked daily.
That's all changed. We had a serious talk Friday and we are committed to this break-up. Due, funny enough, to the reasons I said above in my quote from a year and a half ago. We have no ill will towards each other and neither of us ever cheated or did anything seriously wrong to each other, and we deeply in love, but she's got to live her life and I am keeping her from it. Just three weeks ago we hit our 2 year mark. This entire year has been tough.
We haven't seen each other since Monday, and we decided no texting, no e-mail, no chatting, no phone calls, after our talk on Friday.
It hurts really fucking bad. Really. Fucking. Bad.
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