oh man. that has to be hard.

Im sorry, man.

I havent lost too many people. my friend from HS OD'd. that was hard, I cant imagine.

My whole family are gone, mom in 75, dad in 81, older sister in 86 and my little sister in 99.
All gone. My little sister almost made it to the turn of the century. Passed a few days before Thanksgiving.
I never expected to live this long.

you didnt have kids? did your sisters?

I have a son, he's 38 now, and my sister had three boys.
But that's not the same family wise as the core group you grow up with.
Was hoping my son would have kids but I've given up on that idea.

Oh and you mentioned a friend from HS, all of my close friends from high school are gone too as well as their parents. Even my first love from boyhood has left us. Her mother may still be alive, I don't know, her father was a preacher so they didn't really like me all that much.

But time marches on.

hope you feel better, dave.

I feel surprisingly less than I thought I would; actually ...

You fuckers are sooooo depressing...

It's a new fucking year. Make your life, be your destiny and take responsibility for yourself. I have an awesome woman, a cool dog and a couple trinkets. All that's happened to me since I found this place, I have as much right as anyone to off myself, but I don't think I've been happier than I am right now. It flows from within.

Come on, get happy!

It's good for a chance to get it all out sir.

Looking forward here.

hope you didnt kill anyone.  happy new year. this one stared out pretty good. good sleep, lots of cuddles, a big big O and now breakfast in bed. awesome.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KK6Qr7qmSvY

You fuckers are sooooo depressing...

It's a new fucking year. Make your life, be your destiny and take responsibility for yourself. I have an awesome woman, a cool dog and a couple trinkets. All that's happened to me since I found this place, I have as much right as anyone to off myself, but I don't think I've been happier than I am right now. It flows from within.

Come on, get happy!

You misunderstand ...
I'm allowing myself a little time ...
I actually feel ok about everything ...

I can't wait to get back to it again, and look for office space, and work my balls off again ...
I just promised myself I'd take it easy for X-Time amount ... I'm following through ...

I'm hopeful for 2015 ....

Itsa little depressing, but not all of like is rainbows and sunshine. for everyone anyway.

Im hopeful for 2015 as well. and my black heart doesnt hope.

My heart grows blacker as the days carry on ....
... I'm going to be ok no matter what

... that, and the Dali Lama's vision for me on my deathbed keep me going

its too accurate.

* Thrash nods *

* Tru nods *

OFFICE SPACE??? Jesus (pronounced Hay-zoos) dude, you live in a 4 bedroom house...convert one to an office and workshop, you have cable, get another phone line. I can come down there and add or change your lighting and power access. With your talent and contacts you should be able to cover your monthly overhead WHERE YOU ARE the first two business days of the month.

I'd be there to work with you but we're giving Florida a break. Maybe this fall...

The location here is not conducive for one of the businesses that I need to base in Jax ...

Ok, so me and the roomate just got back from grocery shopping at Wal-Mart.  I always wait in the truck while he shops because of my back and other problems.  So I'm sitting there, and this black woman walks up to the car I parked in front of, looks up, sees me, and jumps, startled.  She then nervously gets in the car and drives away quickly.

.......a black person gets scared of a white person sitting in a parking lot?  Isn't it supposed to be the other way around?

I mean, I don't think I'm THAT ugly...

Hahahahaha

Yeah, that doesn't seem right ...
I have, because of the angle I've approached a vehicle, not known someone was in it ....
Maybe it's more of that shock ... Not initially seeing you ...

Has anyone here Googled their common username lately? I do it for people on Google+ and YouTube that annoy me to see if there is anything interesting in their background but there is often only a very small number of entries.

I just Googled TruAnRksT and shit man, there are over a thousand entries!
It's not like it can really be mistaken for some other username. LOL

Oh My, I just did my previous username (from before the SS visit) and there were only 8 hits. Most of those weren't really even relevant. But one result had my old sig which I had completely forgotten about..

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"All things are not knowable...
There is a finite limit of our ability to
comprehend the complexities of infinity"--KaosMynd

Yeah, I don't really have a common username.  I use a different nick for every class of thing I do or am into on the internet, usually named after something that'll bring up at least a few hundred thousand search items if you try to google it, and all seperated with no real connection to link any one to any other.  And I have about a half dozen dead drop E-mail addresses to handle them.

Yeah, between A-S and SA, I've gotten a bit paranoid over the years, but not so much the last couple. 

One of my favorite nicks I came up with was Parkour Lewis, but I only ever used it in one place I think, a year or two ago.

I liked Dorky and Changling too. but both of those is too generic.
I still think my original username is really unique.

And Ebonics wasn't involved. LOL

My current thought is that I havent done a fucking thig in two days but feed myself, the dog, and bathroom visits for us aboth and I dont feel bad at all about it. my room is a mess, but I cant work up a give a fuck. doesnt happen often. must be PMS

I've been to the Dr's a couple times this week. Had some blood tests and an EKG done on Tue and today I did a monitored treadmill stress test. Got winded after only 4 minutes but looks like my heart is doing ok. They said I got a bit pale near the end and that my Dr might want to do more tests.

hate the doc. gotta lose some weight before i get sick, but food is so good!

One of my favorite nicks I came up with was Parkour Lewis, but I only ever used it in one place I think, a year or two ago.

You can't really lose with a name like that!

One of my favorite nicks I came up with was Parkour Lewis, but I only ever used it in one place I think, a year or two ago.

You can't really lose with a name like that!

Haha I'm glad somebody got it.